People tend to be our mirrors, reflecting back to us what we give to them...

I stopped paying attention to my W so she stopped paying attention to me...

She felt hurt by what I did so she hurt me...

You stopped paying attention to your H so he stopped paying attention to you. Even if you feel he did it first... We're mirrors... Until we stop... and reflect something different...

How you might go about learning to be with yourself will be up to you. Winter camping as you mentioned above, some people will go on "walk abouts", others go high into the mountains to mediate... smile You will find your solitude when it appears. Embrace it for what you can gain from it.

On breaking bread, I am talking about a complete stranger. One personal experience I had was in San Francisco. I went to a chinese restaurant and had lunch wit a homeless man who emigrated from Hungary. It was quite enlightening and heart warming. I learned a lot about him... and about myself...

I am truly impressed with your "giving" challenge. Interesting about what your mind brought up, regarding the challenge. It wasn't about who might get the money or whether that money might end up in the trash or that money might be found by a druggy or perhaps someone who didn't need the money took it...

Rather... your thoughts more went to relationships and trust... very cool... also though, you do have certain expectations of where that money might end up... the good it might do someone...

These are the things you can ponder on... what more can you infer about yourself and how you conduct yourself...


lol... I love that you're negotiating the "time" challenge... interpretation of a challenge is often as important as participating in the challenge, itself...

Notice... even while you are negotiating the challenge, you want to ensure you are doing it "right". As you did with the money challenge...

I will leave you to your interpretations... just think about how you feel as you "bend" the rules to fit within what you believe is conducting yourself within your perceived beliefs of what others expect of you... Ultimately, the goal is spontaneity and focused on you and your personal time.

I am truly impressed and I am grateful to be part of your growth.