Do I stay or do I go?

[verycrazy]

My sister has three of those little terrors; I mean terriers. She lives several hours away, but I will get to see them on Christmas. I love those dogs, and they like to sit in my lap. I don't know one from the other. They are really the cutest things ever, and they are her babies. They are just wild with a house full of people. I hope he bites ow if she gets mean.

Ahh, just as I thought, ow is just a passing fancy. Maybe she'll pass a bit faster, now the new is wearing off. I don't guess supporting her will go over well for too long with him. And things will go sour.


Funny, how he wanted all those hugs and kisses. Maybe he will miss you while you are away having a grand old time, enjoying GAL. I hope you have a great time!!

vc

[anyhope]

I'm back!
Yes, my dog is really just pure joy and I'm so grateful to have him. He has such a good little heart. I'm amazed how loving he is.
I had an amazing time in Mexico.. I will not even lie to you.. I had a 4 day fling.. Very nice guy, made me feel like a princess, something I have not felt in years. Pretty sad, but true.
H came to pick me up at the airport and invited me for dinner when I got back. I've left my car there while I was gone and we went to pick it up and he invited me in. He said ow wasnt home. Btw.. You know how I said sometime ago that ow said she will have a baby with him? Looks like she has changed her mind now.. One of my friends that came to Mexico is the one h introduced ow to so he always updates me on things and he said they were over at his place a few days back and ow said she does not want to have babies, so that ,ales me feel a lot better.
I kinda feel sorry for h for not having a baby at 40, but in all honesty, he has not lived the life where I've thought a baby would be right for us and I always felt too young to have a baby.. What would I have done if I had kids.. I'd be here a single mother.. Don't even want to think about that. He might make a good father one day..
Well.. Where was I? He invited me in to get the dog ready to come home and all.. The house looks like... I don't know.. Ow has bought her own pictures.. No taste whatsoever, some guy showing peace sign.. It's more like a poster hung in the living room, the furniture moved all over the place.. A huge jar of weed.. Stuff everywhere.. I'm not just hating, it really looks bad. I forgot the souvenirs in hs car so he said he'll bring them over today he called before I woke up that he'll come by in the afternoon I sat here waiting for him all afternoon only to get a call at 9 saying that he'll come tomorrow. I told him to next time let me know so I'm not sitting here waiting.. Not like I had anywhere to go, but he doesn't have to know that..

[verycrazy]

So, ow has the taste of an adolescent? Nice decorating with the jar of weed, too! I remember when I was 18, my best friend's brother gave us each a big jar of weed, and we thought we were so cool. We were tuned out for months! Seems stupid now, though.

Yeah, I really think ow's newness is wearing off. Now she doesn't want a baby? I wonder when she will let him know that news. And you are right, H hasn't acted like a man who wants to raise children, so you would still possibly be here one day with a child or two, a single mother. I guess some men take a lot of time to grow up; probably most of them do. No offense to all you men out there!

I think by meeting a guy in Mexico and having a good time, you showed yourself that if you have to, you can move on and have a good R with another man. If it comes to that, which I hope not. I wonder if your H will sense that in you? I am sure a woman puts off a different vibe when something like that happens. As to whether H picks up on it; who knows?

I hope you enjoyed having dinner with your H. Maybe more invites of that sort will happen.

Glad you had fun in Mexico. I went when I was a kid, and I loved it. There's nothing like genuine Mexican food.

vc

[anyhope]

He most likely knows that ow doesnt want kids now as h and her go together to this friends house and im sure he heard or was part of the conversation.
As for the guy in Mexico he will find out for sure as my friends are alredy commenting on facebook and that one friend of ours will most likely tell him anyways to make him jelous.. Hes just the type who would, but honestly.. do I care? Hes living with another woman and as far as hes concerned we're finished, so he cant expect me to wait for him forever wondering what went wrong.. Altough I have a feeling he would secretly like that.

[verycrazy]

You are right, why should your H expect you will wait forever? Like someone on here said, it's like they want you to be right there where they left you. Unfortunately for them, they don't always get to call all the shots.

vc

[anyhope]

Ha! He came by, invited me to go eat tomorrow and asked for a hug as he was leaving. I wonder where this is going..

[verycrazy]

Hmmm, I wonder,too. Are things going to get interesting there?

vc

[verycrazy]

I mean MORE interesting? Enjoy your date.
vc

[Abbey]

Just for reference, my H told me that he thought the neighbour at my townhouse and I had something going on. It DID factor into H sticking his foot back into the door. Don't over play it though. Games can always come back to bite ya in the end.

[anyhope]

Not planning on overplaying anything. Yesterday he cancelled as he had a headache and asked to go today. Today he called and he said we can go today but let's go tomorrow as well.. I told him I was not so hyped about the chicken wings as he was so I'm good to go just today. Almost felt like he is checking if I'm available. I am available.. Don't have anything to do really.. But I can't say yes to him all the time.
So I just got home. Nothing special. No relationship talk at all. In fact as we were going I felt really detached and strong. Not sure if it's good, but it is good in a way..