First off, Say and AL, thank you so much for your kindness..
Now let me explain for the newbies why you should never, never snoop.
Yep, I did. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Checked the phone records, no idea what possessed me other than things took a strange turn day before yesterday and my antenna was up. So of course I found a bazillion texts and super late night phone calls. I did refrain from saying anything to H, but he definitely knew something was up. I deflected.
So the real reason you shouldn't snoop, is now I feel like crap. I did it to myself, have no one to blame but myself. Had a good cry yesterday, so now I can add a puffy face to my list of reasons why you shouldn't do it.
H is coming to get D today, and I am not looking forward to that either. I really don't want to see him right now. A friend of mine said I was self-sabotaging and she may be right. Its a subconscious thing, I believe, but why would I do that? I know better.
He did ask what our plans were on Sunday, I told him (I've got a full day planned) and he asked if he could join us for the movie. Not sure what to make of that but it is the first time he's asked to join us on any family venue in a couple of months. We'll see if he shows.
BTW, went to the divorce care class 'surviving the holidays'- did not like it. I found it very depressing, and I'm sure that's not the goal. Maybe it was just me...
