Do I stay or do I go?

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I'm back!
Yes, my dog is really just pure joy and I'm so grateful to have him. He has such a good little heart. I'm amazed how loving he is.
I had an amazing time in Mexico.. I will not even lie to you.. I had a 4 day fling.. Very nice guy, made me feel like a princess, something I have not felt in years. Pretty sad, but true.
H came to pick me up at the airport and invited me for dinner when I got back. I've left my car there while I was gone and we went to pick it up and he invited me in. He said ow wasnt home. Btw.. You know how I said sometime ago that ow said she will have a baby with him? Looks like she has changed her mind now.. One of my friends that came to Mexico is the one h introduced ow to so he always updates me on things and he said they were over at his place a few days back and ow said she does not want to have babies, so that ,ales me feel a lot better.
I kinda feel sorry for h for not having a baby at 40, but in all honesty, he has not lived the life where I've thought a baby would be right for us and I always felt too young to have a baby.. What would I have done if I had kids.. I'd be here a single mother.. Don't even want to think about that. He might make a good father one day..
Well.. Where was I? He invited me in to get the dog ready to come home and all.. The house looks like... I don't know.. Ow has bought her own pictures.. No taste whatsoever, some guy showing peace sign.. It's more like a poster hung in the living room, the furniture moved all over the place.. A huge jar of weed.. Stuff everywhere.. I'm not just hating, it really looks bad. I forgot the souvenirs in hs car so he said he'll bring them over today he called before I woke up that he'll come by in the afternoon I sat here waiting for him all afternoon only to get a call at 9 saying that he'll come tomorrow. I told him to next time let me know so I'm not sitting here waiting.. Not like I had anywhere to go, but he doesn't have to know that..