Just got home from taking S to dinner and a movie. Feeling very mixed and raw right now... during dinner at one point S got up to go look out the window at the street. All I could think, "is this what it's going to be like? Is this what my future holds?" Even with my S I felt so alone and out of place sitting there. We went to the movie and came home afterward. I know, or at least hope, it will get better... I just haven't been to a sit-down restaurant without my W in a very long time. I also failed to plan ahead and bring anything to occupy my S AND we ordered the one thing on the menu that takes 30 minutes to make (note to the waiter, if the family has little kids, warn them their choice will take 30 minutes to make... we'll probably just order something else).
You can tell I didn't exercise this morning and still short on sleep... can't get my emotions in check.
Married 6 together 8 Me:38 W:31 second marriage for both SS12, SD10, S6 Bomb: 9/8/11 (day before our 5 yr ann) W moved out: 2/18/12 D final: 11/12/12 Share S 50/50. Spend as much time as I can with SS & SD
