The hurt is still there, just try not to get angry because of it!!
I picked the kids up tonight, she didn't even come to the door to acknowledge me, no problem, it hurt a little, but nobody sees it anymore.
Son told me mum was getting ready she was going out with "the girls", she maybe, she maybe seeing OM, who knows??
I can only try to not let it play on my mind, this is what kills you!!
I once read that the best horror movies were the ones that showed little, it was your own imagination that gave you the biggest fright!!
This is what you have to overcome, letting your mind take you to places you don't want to go, she maybe with her friends, if she isn't then she is lying to her own kids, this is not good!
But these are the things that she has to live with if she is lying, she has lied to me, no big deal!, her kids, and her family, I just hope its all worth it, because if,and when it goes down hill, she will have to overcome big regrets!!
But that is not my problem.
I know I messed things up in my marriage, I take full responsibility for that, always have, and always will, but I have done everything I can to save my marriage once I understood, I will continue to try and do the right thing by it, until I have nothing to fight for.
