lc4, that's true. My first thought was about the old vodka joke, how is "enhances" one's personality, so that if someone is a jerk they just end up being a bigger jerk. In my case it was the stress and resentment that made me....well, I don't know if I was a jerk, but I wasn't much fun either. The "fun" has been the hardest thing to get back. Holding the stress and resentment inside and not doing anything to take control did me in....