Sorry, looked at your sitch again and noticed something,

Wait a minute,

"I guess they don't really understand what i have been through..."

I had a big time with this! Family and friends who didn't understand that this wasn't just another 'cool' relationship. That's fine. Doesn't mean they don't care, just that they haven't experienced this type of loss. Don't blame them. Redirect yourself to others who know what's up with this.

Off I go now, Me time!

I haven't posted much in the last seven years. I've been a lurker. Just lookin' to put back all the good help I've gotten...