Every sitch is different but the pain is the same. We've all been in your shoes so you are not alone. Remember that.
First thing I would suggest is that you change your name. Calling yourself "broken" is a self-fulfilling prophecy. Look for a name that defines power, strength, control and confidence.
That will help your mindset for the days ahead.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.