Feel like I'm living the movie Groundhog Day...

[workinghardguy]

I completely agree with you guys... I do think she did it because it hurts her. She told me a few days back that she lost it the other day when she stopped and looked at our wedding photos. That she would take those down too if it wouldn't tip the kids off that something's wrong.

And in her mind we're already D'd quite frankly. Or at least separated... roommates as it were. That's why my pain this morning really wasn't about the future. I'm getting towards peace with my future, whatever it is.

It's just grieving for the death of something that means something to me. My R with my wife is an old friend who has been a part of my life for eight years. My friend is sick now and may be dying. And like any friend who is dying, you feel sad for what will be lost. It's natural and healthy quite frankly... it just doesn't make it any easier to deal with.