Wow we are remarkably similar, I understand what you mean completely about running. I start out a little slow and the further I am into it I feel strong and empowered. If I start to feel a little edgy, a run takes care of it. I don't like the raw emotions of this sitch, and need to find a good outlet. The strength is a good side bonus. That and the weight loss.
When he got up this morning, I simply stated "I want you to know that I heard you, and I'm sorry if I didn't hear you sooner. I will not stand in your way of finding your happiness or identity, providing that it is nothing that is hurtful to me"
I don't know if that last statement was DB or not, but I felt that I had to make my boundary clear.
He proceeded to say "I want you to know that I want my marriage and I want to be here, we just need to bring it down a bit for all of our sakes. We can then talk about everything"
I told him that is not what I am asking for, and he said "I know, but I need you to know that I want my marriage"
I am reminding myself to believe nothing that he says and only a % of what he does. I hope I got that right, but the reminder is because in the past I have been so quick to take everything at face value and when he flips the switch again I am hurt
