Feel like I'm living the movie Groundhog Day...

[workinghardguy]

Well back up this morning due to S's croup... poor kid W has to work today and I don't so I'm the one up with him.

I know we can't mind read our WAS. But when they do stuff like the deleting of photos your brain wants a reason. So I've settled on seeing them hurts her. Two days ago during our R talk she told me that it wasn't until some time last week that she looked our M photos that line our stairwell. Before that the photos just fell into the background of life. But for whatever reason she looked at them last week. She sat down and cried. They make her feel like a failure and a bad person. She would take them down except we're keeping this from the kids, and they would sort of notice.

I'm a little better after some more sleep. It's part of the progression I think. Part of the road down. I don't know if we'll ever take the road up. I'll take the road up, but I really don't know if my W will join me or ever come up that road on her own.