Decent, yes, but my former self would have accepted decent. Decent is not acceptable.
Project? Nah, she's a drive in theater in high def 3-d with doldy surround sound. The inner conflict is so thick and obvious that when she does it around others my jaw drops. Come to think about it that's not really acceptable behaviour (comments about marriage in general)
Yes I'm understanding that it's for me. I'm learning how not to react but I have a long way to go. Caught myself after the fact today.
Had an incredible day today. Got to get out of town and spend some time around a whole lot of really great people in an incredible environment (KD I was at the place you got the job offer from). It was really good for me. I was around some incredibly smart and beautiful women and had a great time. Not at all looking or flirting, or anything but it certainly did help out the self esteem. Really put me in a better mental position.
So she stayed again tonight. I got in late and she had cooked dinner. She was already set for bed but we stayed up and talked for awhile. She didn't make any excuses for staying tonight. That's good.
