our first 3 months before I got pregnant were mutually satisfying. Why can't we recapture that?
Oh, Lydia, Lydia - it was THREE MONTHS! And it was okay because it wasn't REAL LIFE. And when REAL LIFE intervened in the form of your unintended pregnancy, exBF SHOWED YOU WHO HE WAS.
You have to stop trying to make him into something he isn't. And you have to figure out why YOU are willing to settle for such pitiful crumbs. YOU DESERVE A REAL MAN WHO LOVES YOU. Holding on to this totally unobtainable guy is STUNTING your emotional development.
And, FWIW, you are never going to win a guy by telling him :Just throw me a little crumb and I'll be happy with that". Very unattractive. You need to read a book like Why Men Love Bitches.
And as for your moral qualms about sleeping with a guy before he marries you - it didn't stop you from being with ExBF, why are you so worried about it now? I suspect ALL of this is really your way to avoid a genuine relationship with someone - what are you so afraid of??
