It feels impossible to detach. I want him involved in the kid's lives. SO, I believe I use that as an excuse to contact him. I know that is wrong. But, I keep doing it. Not very often but I do it. One time in 8 months has he asked the kids to do something. It was great but otherwise it is me doing the asking for supper, etc.
Now, I feel like Im obsessing over OW. I have taken 10 steps backwards in my process.
I have GAL. Big time. But, he tells me just enough to keep me on a string. And, I drink it in. I know I shouldn't. I have expectations. I really feel rejected.
