Thanks Gabbysmom:

Yea you are right. I really had a very bad feeling that i was going back to a place i did not want to go.

The whole idea of again emailing my wife again trying to act strong was useless. She knows very well that i am waiting. I guess it is up to her now.

Thanks y'all for all the support.

BITS
M 38
W 36
D 7
Married 15 yrs
W left for 6 months in 2009
W Filed for D 01/03/11
piecing now...