Peicing and hoping I'm doing the right thing.

[FreeBird0120]

lc4 thank you as well. My focus will definitely be letting go of the past and their relationship. I do need to learn to trust him again, and that will take time, but you're also right in that I must take each day as it comes and focus on all of the positives.

We spoke last night, and we have decided to still work on our M. I could tell that he must not feel very good about himself right now. I could see the shame in his face. He listened to me as I told him that even though what I read hurt me, that I love him and know that those convo's took place at a time that he wasn't fully invested in our M. I told him I've forgiven him for those mistakes and am fully prepared to move forward now that I know everything and have my closure as far as their relationship is concerned.

He still is confused as to what it mattered since the last 2 weeks he's not talked to her and has put all of his effort into our M. He asked me last night, "Lets say 3 years from now we were happier then we've ever been and lets say you never read those convo's. What did reading them really accomplish??" I told him that I needed to know everything that transpired between them so that I could really let go and move forward. I said that as many times as he told me they were just friends and that they just talked innocently a lot, that deep down I knew it was more than that. I said that had I found out 3 years from now about the convo's it would have been worse for me, because I would have asked myself what else he was lying to me about. I told him I was glad that I found out now, so that I could move forward from here.

He hasn't been as affectionate with me since yesterday, but I chalk that up to him feeling guilty, and attacked and not sure of how he should act around me now, but hopefully that subsides and we can start piecing again very soon.

My GALing and 180's:

-To not shove OW and their past in H face.
-To be supportive and loving towards H.
-To thank H often for his efforts.
-To continue on my path of self improvement physically, mentally and spiritually.
-To be the person I know I can be and that my H will love coming home to.

Thanks again everyone!!

Love and Hugs to all!!