H came over last night to see the boys. I went upstairs and left them to do their thing. For someone who feels so uncomfortable at my house he sure doesn't have a problem making himself at home. Got a drink, was on the laptop. I need to move that upstairs.
That should be #1 priority, along with setting the boundaries about his behavior in your house. He does not live there anymore and that was his choice.
I know what you mean about the meeting; ours is this Friday. But it is just another step toward the eventual healing. You know you can't continue with things being the way they are now, so you are doing the only thing you can do to protect yourself and your kids. Any other course of action only prolongs the pain. Try to think past the meeting and how you can continue be the superb Mom you already are; everything else is noise in your head.
It's easier said than done, but you are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
