You slipped. We all do. We try so hard to detach but the fact is the very thought of seeing our spouses still puts us in knots; we want to see them yet we know it will bring anxiety and tension. Last time I saw my W - about a month ago - all I wanted to do was hold her and kiss her, and it took superhuman effort to do neither.
Give him space. Don't contact him, or apologize for anything you may have said or done. But be prepared for a long bout of NC. If / when he does contact you about anything, be polite but brief. Let him wonder what you're up to.
This time of year is miserable for us LBS's but it is also a perfect time to really work on the relationships you have with your family, your friends AND YOURSELF. That goes a long way in restoring your sense of self-esteem and self-respect. Plus, whenever you're working on those relationships, you're not thinking about your H.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
