@JS - Yah! Can't wait to hear all about your weekend. Did ya kill anything?
I still struggle with letting go too. I have no doubt you will let go of your w gracefully.
@ Gunny - Thank you! My secret - lot's of prayer.. seriously. I feel like I am in constant prayer with God. I know he is the only reason I am handling my w with the grace and love that I have been.
Small Journal
Not alot going on in regards to sitch. W is away on a trip w/ her students. She is aware of the price to buy me out of the car. She will get to it when she does. I no longer sit and wait or fear her response.
The past weekend did leave me missing her a bit.. although I am thankful that I am remembering her in a positive light. My inner 5 year old is doing ok. Just need to remember that this past week is not the normal. My heart shall remain guarded, my hope.. in the box up high on a shelf I can't reach.
I continue to pray for my w, me, and our m.. but trust that God knows what's best for us individually..and as a couple. I'll do my part, but will leave the rest in his hands.
I took up a new GAL activity.. running. There have been a few times over the past 7 months when I have been out for a walk and got angry at my sitch.. so I started to run and felt better. So I took it up this week. I can barely run 2 miles. (The Divorce Diet made me look good but did nothing for my physical fitness ) A new goal is to run my first 10K at the end of January.
Other than that.. just living life. Appreciating the good moments, learning from the bad.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
) A new goal is to run my first 10K at the end of January.
