W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore.

[Snowman]

Well my W wants to buy our laptop from me which is weird to me. It is half hers and she could probably get it when we get our D. I'm not going to try and guess what my my W feels or thinks because I don't know.

At this point there is no real turning the boat around and there has not been any sign of wanting to turn around on her decision. At this point I don't know how I could ever trust her or confide in her. My W starting talking to numerous guys from the beginning of this thing and who knows how far she took her EA to. I unfortunately am probably to the point of no return for me. I can't continue working on this from my end and keep up my hopes when my wife is wanting a D and continues down that path with her actions. I feel like I'm banging my head against the wall at this point. She has no intentions of working on it and I know that this is me saying what I think she is thinking but she just doesn't. At one time or another I need to make the crap or get off the pot decision.

My W has not made one comment to me about us this whole time in a positive manner. She has not wanted to work on this and told me she will not work on it and if she does she would go to marriage counseling. She told me she does not love me and is not attracted to me. She even told me I deserve someone better, someone who loves me. I know I should believe things that are said but am I just in denial that this is done.

When we did have our last talk and she decided on divorce I want to understand obviously but I have shown that I was ok with it and ask her if she would like me to start the stipulation papers. She claimed she would check with her lawyer but I have not heard anything since. She has never initiated one discussion about us and never wanted to address anything about us. I know it is not just about me and want I want so I have tried to give this time, be patient, and GAL with no changes from her. I feel that I'm to the point of moving on or continuing this pursuit is pointless. She has chosen her new life, friends, lifestyle, and direction. I can't change this and I'm not sure I want to live with the new person she is or the person that constantly runs from their problems. It goes against who I am and how I do things. I'm not saying pursuing her would be right for me or anything like that but she has run from her family, her work issues by trying to change jobs, run from conversations in our marriage because she doesn't want to address problems, and now she is running from this problem. I can't deal from my end with someone that runs all the time. I can give but if no one is there to receive then I can't really help that.

I would love to look through this situation through her eyes but I can't really understand her view. Her view is to run, have fun in the single life, and avoid what problems she has with me. Not much to work with. She doesn't love me and wants out thats what I see from her view which I'm sure is not all the detail but I don't have much to work with to know otherwise.

Sorry for the rambling but this is what I see and feel.