Peicing and hoping I'm doing the right thing.

[FreeBird0120]

Yes MrBond you're right. I do need to ease up and let go, but maybe now that I know the (hopefully) complete truth, I can move forward, provided there are no more surprises.

And hopefully he isn't too discouraged now to not want to fix us. That I guess is my biggest fear. Throughout this whole 5 months, its been a heart wrenching roller coaster of forward and backwards. Each time we get closer to where we need to be, she pops up somewhere there to derail us.

I asked him in our last convo if he truly still loves me, and he said of course he does. But he says now he feels deflated and that his feelings and efforts don't matter. I told him that of course they mattered or I wouldn't still be here.

I guess we'll see what happens tonight...

Need all of my DB families prayers...

Thanks everyone for your input...I love you all!!