Quick journal,

Went to the support group last night - a couple of interesting folks there I had a good chat with, primarily consisted of guys complaining how they were hard-done by the system. I'll go again - but was more interested in ideas around co-parenting and how to achieve it without conflict.

When I got back - W asked me where I went, I told her was meeting some friends and left it at that.

My sister sent me an email - mentioned she may fly over for New Year's with me - I was like great (W works on New Year's I usually look after the girls) - I'd have company. W's response, hotel rooms would be so expensive in the city - can she afford it. This comment I had to walk away from - she followed me and said "what's wrong" - I said no she can't afford it, she can barely afford the flight that's why she'll be staying here. My W backtracked and said "I just thought she may want to enjoy being in the city" - I said she may, but she may also want to be here with her neices.

She then asked me about the email she had sent me re: mediator, I said that I had seen it. She asked about the list of items - I said the list seemed to cover most bases and I am sure the mediator will guide us through anything missing. She said the only thing she was unsure of was alimony - she feels she is entitled to more (to be honest I think she would get more), again - I said I was sure the mediator would guide us through this.

At this stage she is very much set on moving forward - nothing I can do about her - just me. My biggest concern right now is preparing myself mentally and financially for the D and implications - mentally being away from my girls, financially if I end up paying a larger amount of alimony - how will I afford a nice place for me (and the girls to stay over).


M47
W45
D10 (Has CP)
D7
M12 T14
ILYBINILWY 5/1/11
Asked for seperation 5/10/11
Seriously DBing 7/1/11
W admitted to 2 EA's on 11/3/11.
Evidence of PA 11/5/11 - Definite evidence of PA 11/20/11
D - Final 7/11/12