I'm not doing so well today, but thank you for asking. I cannot stop thinking about all of it and it's really stressing me out. I keep thinking back to the texts I read, all the times she went out and didn't come back until the morning, and all the other negative things surrounding this. I'm starting to make more connections between unknown events/details and the info I do have, and it's driving me crazy!
I am trying to use those thoughts as a prompt/reminder to do something good for her or at least don't do something negative that I was doing... but I just find myself dwelling about the whole PA and wanting to just rewind and prevent it. I'm really finding myself with very low self-esteem and feeling really negative about every aspect of myself... appearance, personality, etc. I don't know how I can be "a blast" like the OM was based on texts I read a while back. It's counter-intuitive for me to be so down when all I want to do is be up, but I can't shake it.
