Thanks everyone for their input. I would like to continue, to be of help to others in the same dilemma, but know there is a fine line to be found between participating through experience and WHINING! I don't want to be one of those.
As the Holidays approach, I know it makes most of us uncomfortable in one way or another. While I am grateful to be going to my eldest D's for Thanksgiving, I am very much aware that my 'other' family, of whom I was very much a part, is moving on without me, as well. Some sadness over that.
I want very much to have my home put together in time for Christmas, and be able to have the kids/grands come here. I do not even remember last Christmas! Truly.
Some small note Of satisfaction. Although my XH loves his brother, he can't stand to be around him for a long period of time. This means anything over 2 hours, and he cannot stand his youngest nephew ( Very Loud, Very Know-It-All ) Glory be. They have moved only two miles away from XH, and he'll be over every day. Ya Hoo.