Learning from the pain....hard lessons

[In_Shock]

we still live together and it since she's decided she's going to be spending nights out with OW----- this is second time in 2 weeks.......I actually went really dim for a week after the first time.
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I think I need to dim/dark as much as I can in the same house. I think she's going to move out in January. I am beginning to believe I can DB better without having it in my face all the time. Like i said, i do some DBing well.....talking is my weakness....

I love W so much, but she seems to be doing so many things to hurt me on purpose lately. She has to know how this feels....this overnight thing to 'our' old event.........

On the positive side --- GAL is not a problem most of the time. I am very busy with classes(fun, not work for me at all except grading papers)> Also S4 and I spend a lot of time together playing, doing his preschool 'homework', watching some cartoons, etc..... He is my LIGHT and the most important thing BAR NONE.

Remember, my working/going to school was one complaint W had-- that I didn't spend enough time noticking her...LISTENING to her. She reiterated that last night. I have gotten better at listening....but I am guilty of not always UNDERSTANDING what she wants/needs/means. I do try to validate most of the time---when I'm not screwing up and telling her I want to work it out someday.