IS, You said that you took a break from the board and it ended up hurting you. Well come back to us, post here frequently, we are here to help!
People are right that you can't beat yourself up from it.. but you NEED to learn from it. You aren't helping your sitch.. but more importantly.. you aren't helping yourself.
Just as your w is spewing out negatives.. so are you... and unfortunately you are the only person you can control.
We can say let it roll of our backs but it hurts and it will continue to hurt.. and there is NOTHING we can do about that.
HOWEVER.. we can choose to act with dignity, we can chose to act with kindness. These are not easy choices. Ones that take practice and the right mind set.
They become much harder when our emotions are constantly being swirled around. They become much harder when we are on our rollercoaster.
So find out how to get off of it. Do you need to go dark? Do you need to stop with the dinners? Do you need space?
I know there is a ton of fear with these decisions but DBing isn't about walking on eggshells and fearing this action will cause WAS to do this or that.
The truth is that only when we let our emotions settle, we can see how to love clearly.. and then can we start making steps towards being better people.. and only when we walk that journey will our m ever stand a chance.
Hang in there. ((()))
M(f): 43 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
