I don't think I would be able to handle dinner either, so it's a good thing you declined. It is the lesser of 2 evils.
Now Telemark, don't let your mind wander with all sorts of scenarios that you cannot control. You just remember this-you too the high road, which is the hardest road to take, and your W didn't. We both know that jumping from the pot into the flame almost never ensures a happy ending. You are doing everything you can to make you a stronger/better/funnier Telemark, and when you are ready, there is going to be a lot of women who would love to have a man like you in their lives.
So chin up, my friend.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤