I was surprised at her suggestion for dinner; we have had NC for a month, and my first thought when I read that was that she was trying to make nice, especially since it would be right after the meeting to bury our marriage. So yes, I was feeling some bitterness and didn't think about anything other than "no way." In hindsight, creating a little mystery never hurts. At least I didn't type my initial response which was, "Why? Is OM busy?"
Truth is, I've been wanting to have contact with her; any contact. It's still hard to accept her actions and decisions and I find myself caught in "stinking thinking"...I arrive home and half expect/wish to see her car in the driveway, my imagination runs away with thoughts of her and the OM, the fact that she has a whole new life without me is extremely painful and it still seems like some surreal nightmare that I should be able to wake from.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
