Wow.. thanks ladies for all the kind words spoken. It means alot to me.
@ DG - Yes I do know what you mean. I didn't realize how co-dependent I was until now. Being in a relationship with an addict is hard. They say it's a sickness that effects the whole family. I think w and I will be healing for a long time.
@ Gabby - I hope you don't leave the newcomers but understand if you need to. I agree that newcomers blur the line between DBing and being a doormat. I believe this stems from the fear that our next move will be our last move... when in actuality we just never know. We do our best, plant our seeds, and let God do the rest.
@IS - Yes I do miss my cats.. but it is what it is. I gave them up because her house was bigger and I couldn't separate them. With w exploring her new life, the cats will need each other more than ever.. they are very lovey that way.
@ WAW - Wow.. I just don't even know what to say to you hoping to be as graceful as me. I guess the only thing I can say is that it's not me.. I pray all for God to keep my heart loving. If it is happening, it is truly because he has given me the strength to keep going.
Weekend continued on. I woke up sad today but it passed when i went to church. Spent that hour being very thankful for how Saturday turned out.
Spent the afternoon watching the bears game and was excited for another win. The person I hung out with didn't know I was getting a D.. when he found out he was extremely sad. I said me too, but I'm becoming a better woman from this whole thing.
Texted w that I was sending her an email about the car. I felt that since we had taken it to a friendly level, I didn't want to hit her with it out of the blue.
I'm just going with my gut. We are still continuing to be friendly and I plan on keeping that up. I will make sure to expectations in check and allow my emotions to wash over me. Both good and bad.
PS. Had a BBQ Chicken Quesadillas and it was Ah-mazing! Made me think of your thread DG!
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
