I'm still here-again

[~¤DG¤~]

Sad day today.
The boys' great-grandfather passed away last night. He has been ill for years but this past year he really declined.
He was very involved in the kids' lives as they were growing. The one perk of having children so young was they had an opportunity to develop a relationship with their great grandparents.
S15 is the first great grandchild, and he will be a pallbearer at his funeral. I am so proud of him for stepping up to the plate.

Even though exh & I have been divorced for many years, I still have a lot of respect and fondness towards his family. They have always been there for the kids, more than my own parents, and as a result are pretty close knit with them. We would always sit together at school and sporting events and people always said that my kids had the biggest cheering section.

So today my heart is a little heavy, sad that he has left this world but grateful that he is in a better place and will always be with us.

[sayitaintso]

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[any chance?]

Sorry for your pain, DG. Hang in there. Sometimes tragedies put things in perspective. Reflect on his life and rejoice in the good times he had in his life. You be strong for your boys.

Thank you very much for your post yesterday. I just read it, and it hits home directly. I needed that.

[Autumn Leaves]

I'm very sorry for you and for your boys. I'm sure today will be tough, and hopefully you will have a chance to share stories with the boys of fun times they had with their great grandfather. It does seem to help with the healing.

[Telemark]

I'm sorry, DG. It is a blessing that he was able to be active in your boys' lives...young men need the company, advice and guidance of their elders and I'm sure he imparted all of those to the boys.

Prayers for you and your family, sweetheart.

[~¤DG¤~]

Thanks everyone.
This morning the kids & I went through my photo box and found a few pictures to share at the memorial service.
I'm so grateful they had as much time with him as they did.

S15 had mentioned a while back how he is sad that Gpa won't be able attend his graduation, but I know he'll be there in spirit.

Today is an absolutely beautiful day.
It's Nov 12th, and in Western WI the temp is almost 60 degrees.
You can't ask for a better day than that.

[jbnati]

Sorry to hear about the boys' Great Grandpa. I have you and your boys in my prayers.

[~¤DG¤~]

So...I sent H a msg on FB last night. I'll C&P it here, and I'm sure I will receive some 2x4's for it, but it really is the last message I am going to send.

[b]I don't know what things you supposedly came to get, because everything is still here, or where the papers are you said you left. They were not on the table nor are they any place else that I've looked.

I asked you to stop the divorce, which I am sure you probably won't but I wanted to at least make it known once again, that I do not wish our marriage to end. If you choose to go through with it, at least I know that I did everything I could to try and save this. It just wasn't enough.

I won't contact you any more, and I truly wish you the best. Your things are out in the garage and I would appreciate my key back. There is still a little bit of mail here for you, it's in it's usual place in the letter rack.

Despite all the rumors, bs, and people trying to be involved, I never spoke negatively of you to anyone nor did I stop loving you. I tried the best I could to try and make things right.
No matter what, I will always love you with all I am, have, and will ever be. [\b]

Yes, I know it is pursuing, and I am sure I broke some DB principles, but I really don't care. I had to make it known that after all this time apart, I still love him.
I will stay true to my word about not contacting him any more, I have to. I've layed all my cards out on the table and even though he will more than likely reject what I have to say, I don't regret putting my feelings out there.

[any chance?]

DG:
This board has been a momunental support for me during the most horrid time of my life, and I will always be deeply indebted to the good people here. The advise and guidance here is absolutely invaluable. But sometimes you just have to go with your heart, and say what you need to say. You have to be true to yourself. You said what you needed to say, and I need to do the same thing to my W as the D day looms ahead. Keep your head up, and be proud of who you are.

Enjoy what is another wonderful fall day in western Wisconsin.

[~¤DG¤~]

Thanks AC.
I'm not expecting any sort of response from him.
And maybe later on I'll kick myself for it, but for now I'm ok with everything.

Journaling----

Took Luccy for a long walk this morning. I am so happy she has come into our lives, she is such a sweet girl.
Right now I'm relaxed on my couch and she's sleeping on my lap.

I swear, if everyone loved me the way my animals do, I would be the luckiest girl in the world.