greenblue, thanks for asking for me! I'm doing ok. Well, I'm not doing ok. I haven't heard from H in 4 days. He's in "stonewall" me mode. I'm just trying to take one day at a time, and move forward.
dbmod, it's true, I have pushed him to be angry many times. I'm having a hard time with owning up to my own responsibility, but not taking responsibility for his reaction. I find that a difficult line to walk, especially when he tells me everything is my fault. I definitely have a tendency to internalize that and believe it. I'll post more and read more from others. I really need the support right now. So lonely!
