What would you suggest I do about the fact that she is on Skype most evenings? Should I stay invisible or just not bother with MY contacts for a bit. No great hardship really as the main one is the "So Called Friend" who I am continually suspicious of. I could block her ID but that seems a bit petulant, especially when I see it as a doorway if she wants to use it.
Seeing her online does give me a little lift to know that she is well, even if I hear nothing from her.
Been thinking about some of the things that I can improve. One of my consistent failings is to live in the past and use the "lessons" to shape my life today. I had convinced myself that because I am always the partner who gets dumped, that it is a question of WHEN rather than IF she left me. Perhaps I created it unconciously by having a brick wall up?
Still feeling negative, my lack of patience is making me fret about losing her altogether. I suppose that is why I am itching to contact her. There is some post for her which I was thinking of letting her know about, but will not without permission :-) It is nothing she needs urgently, just a statement of a credit card she cut up that was used for household expenses (I paid the bill).
