Thanks guys, I know I'm going to be ok one way or another, just wish at times I either still didn't love my wife or didn't hurt still!!
The hurt is only when I let thoughts enter my head, I miss her loads, but I don't hurt now, not sure what happened there!!!
So much for no contact!! Had 2 calls after my post, then a visit to mine to drop things off for the kids, then came back with something she had forgot but what wasn't really needed?? I also felt she was happy being there and didn't want to leave??
She then rang later to speak to the kids, but spent more time talking to me about Xmas!!!
I honestly don't know what she wants and I think neither does she at times!!
When she comes to mine and she sees how happy the kids and I are, all laughing and relaxed, she must have some doubts!!! I'd be amazed if she didn't!!
The fact I've not drank for 14 weeks alone is a massive change and 1 she didn't expect, truthfully, maybe I didn't at first, but I'm here and well!!
She said she will call me later today??
Again contact, contact, it's nice, I like it, it does give me hope, but I have to put that out of my mind, and keep positive about me and my life, not just if she wants to be part of it, which she does, just maybe not in the way I want!! But that's today, tomorrow, who knows!!!
Have a good weekend guys!! Thanks for the support!!!
