Went to take my car for an oil change.. found out that it has many more problems than I had thought. It wasn't even safe to drive it home.
Called w. I don't want to start pumping money into the car if we are going to sell them both. I was surprised that she answered. She was very pleasant on the phone and offered to meet me tomorrow to discuss the cars. We talked briefly about Penn State and then hung up.
I've been crying ever since. The cars will be the last part of this divorce. All that is left is the paperwork.. and that's it..
I've got to be honest.. I'm tired. I'm tired of acting upbeat. I'm tired of being positive. I'm tired of turning the other cheek and taking the high road.
I know I'm venting. I know I'll be alright.. but for right now. It just hurts.
Maybe it's not a good idea to see the cats.. all this contact has me kinda loopy.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
