I guess I have to let go of the dream of the whole family picture. I think that is the problem I am having. I wanted my kids to grow up with both parents. I know I am not the one that walked out. I guess I was hoping that if I gave him enough time and space he would come back. don't we all....
I know I don't have him anymore so how can I be afraid of losing him more. He is gone. deep down I was hoping he would change his mind I think that is why I am so upset today. I have lost that last bit of hope. I don't really know why i even want him back he isn't even the person I married anymore. I need to remember that he is showing me the person he is now and the kids and I deserve better than him. I don't have a M now it is just in name only. so I need to buck up and get on with it. Hard work being a grownup.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Thanks for all the replies it really means alot to me. I don't know where I would be if I hadn't of found this website. I never feel like I give very good advice but I sure get a lot.
