25 I was waiting for you and hoping you would respond!
Our circumstances aren't that dire I am managing to pay the bills but am running out of money toward the end of the 2 weeks. My mom is giving me money if it wasn't for that I wouldn't be able to make everything. We can still have Christmas and the kids haven't noticed anything different. I am ok. I just can't expect my mother to make up the difference that my children's father should be. He left me with all the bills credit cards, mortgage everything. He just walked out to start his life over.
We do earn about the same amount and to be honest I have no idea why he thinks I should have to pay for everything. He does pay for 1/2 of their stuff, karate basketball and 1/2 of their medical bills. But clothes food shelter all me. She did say I should ask for alimony when I said I didn't she said you don't play all your cards at once that we could use it as a bargaining chip. We were married 10 years in Oct. I don't want to take his money for me, I don't want him to be broke but I don't think I should be either.
We are in Florida. Not sure she did say there was something I could file can't remember what but basically why would I do that sort of thing.
yes I do think I am afraid that I will make him mad and he will never come back. I know that is stupid. Logically I do know that. I think that is why I haven't said anything about money before and I am sort of embarrassed how in debt with cc I am or we are. We lived paycheck to paycheck and sometimes on cc. I did the bills and I feel like I did a crap job, when I did the best I could with what money I had. Sometimes I think I should just file bankruptcy and start over but that is a whole other problem.
I am doing ok with GAL, mostly with the kids cause I have the all the time. I am ok with myself I am liking who I am now and I know I am a good person. I know what I did wrong and I know what not to do when I have another relationship. I just never thought I would be here, but who does. Seeing a divorce is a Huge 180. So was not losing it when he told me about his next vaca. I haven't been calling or texting him and not really even talking to him much when he is around.
I think it will really hurt my feelings if he is thrilled I filed not about the money part but the D part. I would love to see some emotion about this M ending. We have been together for 12 years and he is so ready to just walk away. I am just feeling very conflicted today.
