We went to our 4th MC session last night and I'm a bit discouraged. My W participated but seemed uninterested in being and she complained of a stomach ache before it. I don't know if she really had the stomach ache or if she just didn't want to go. We had to take our kids with and let them sit in the waiting room, and the MC seemed unhappy about this when he saw them. My wife said after the session that his reaction made her mad and that she is starting to feel like our sessions are just repetitions of the same thing.
Our session was more of the same of what we had been working on. My W said that she has seen me make the changes we've been discussing in the previous sessions, which is reassuring to me because she isn't showing me much that she is aware of me making changes.
I'm not sure what happened but my wife's mood has changed in the last day or two. She has become more reserved and less outwardly happy. We have a big birthday party coming up for one of our kids so maybe she's just stressed with that, so I'm focusing on helping prepare for it.
I'm having a hard time understanding how my faults in the relationship would drive her to a PA. It's clear that I have had relationship faults, but how does that justify a PA? Either way, I need to accept that it may or may not have happened, and I may or may not ever know the truth. I'm trying to focus on improving myself in areas that relate to our relationship.
My commitment to change is going to benefit me and my children regardless of what my W does, so I need to continue on this path.
