Thanks VC, its nice to know that my parenting skills have improved so much by just not drinking and appreciating my kids much much more!
Not sure about the ice tea though!!, it's 5 degrees here!!
Although I'm great, I'm happy, settled, content with most things in life. I feel good, I'm really enjoying the gym, my job is going well, and just got a nice Xmas bonus!!!
In the last few days I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about my wife with OM!! I have not done this for weeks, but as I know he's around from this weekend it's really playing on my mind, and I hate it!!
I have tried the big stop sign in my head, when I think about him, but I find I'm really struggling with it?
Its easy when I know he's away, its just that my wife and I are apart during this time, but when he's around she is with him, that still hurts big time!!!!!
It's really hard for me to not think about it, even though everything is going so well for me, and myself and my wife have really got on so well recently.
I know I will keep the situation friendly and will not speak about him, or the fact that I know he's around, but it still hurts BIG time.
I also know it's out of my control, and nothing really to do with me, I will still act happy and enjoying things, and not show the hurt I am feeling.
She has been great lately, even minor flirting, but I also know that it will all stop now, she will remain on good terms, but I'll be surprised if she continues with the constant contact, in fact it's already noticable, yesterday was the first day she has not contacted me in around 4-5 weeks!!!
I don't know if she is having any conflict of interest, but it must be hard to switch her contact like that, maybe its easy for her!!
I just have to maintain the life I have right now, no arguing, no fighting, it's just all good.
I may have this all wrong, but it feels like i'm in a competion with this guy, were she has to decide who she wants to be with, my problem is I need a lot of time for her to see the changes are real, but she has mentioned how I've changed recently, maybe she is still not sure how real they are.
But they are for me and the kids to enjoy, and it's up to her if she wants to be part of it.
On a plus note, I have still not received any further correspondence regarding the divorce itself? Not sure what is happening there, it's been months since it was last mentioned, she has the house, but the divorce process seems to have stopped? Not sure, but its causing me no stress, so I'm not going to ask.
