That day I DID try to say my piece and walk away. I went and took a shower. He followed me into the shower (the door has no lock) and opened the curtain while I asked him to leave. He refused and stood there with the curtain open. My sister and her friends were in the room outside the bathroom. I was mortified.
I do fear my own role in everything. But various sources say that's not healthy for me to do. I don't really know what's true. But I am afraid of him. I'm going to visit for Thanksgiving with the kids. I asked him to get the guns out of the house and that makes him angry. He said something like..."you're starting to make me believe I would be capable of killing you." Now I feel like I shouldn't have asked him to remove the guns! I'm not even sure he'll be taking them out! But I'm afraid to not go visit because he'll get angry and I don't want him to be angry.
