What do I do next? Part 2

[luvhurts49]

You're right, I don't have to do anything, but I choose to do what's right by myself, my kids, my family, and my W (even if she doesn't know it). I love my W and kids unconditionally. My belief that my W and I can make this a better, happier M and a more rewarding family is what keeps me going. Yes, my W made her choices, but my choice is my W and kids.

If I have to, I can survive by myself--I just choose to not want to. My kids are my #1 focus, myself is #2, my W is #3, and our M is #4. I put my W before our M because even without M, her happiness is important to me and my kids.

Bottom line here, my W isn't acting like herself--she has gotten progressively worse since the bomb, but I still have hope for her, for us. I'm not angry with my W, just disappointed. Disappointed that she didn't feel like she could find what she is looking for in me--that she decided to not talk about her problems and feelings with me.

I may complain (heck, I do that anyway), but in no way does that mean that I want to give up because I don't. I can fail at everything else, but I refuse to give up or fail when it comes to my kids, my family, and my M.