AC,
The words of frustration you are voicing are the same for me, almost word for word. The pain is there everyday, the anxiety. Yet...I know it will get better, with time, doesnt make it any easier, but knowing that it will at least change sometime in the future brings solace to me, hang in there.

m 54
XW 48
m 12
t 14
bomb 6-11
s 10-11
wife moved to other state 10-21-11
d 9-12

O GOD THY SEA IS SO GREAT AND MY BOAT IS SO SMALL!