Thought it would be done by now...part 3

[imthemom]

Hello Life,
Have been reading your threads this morning, I noticed that you replied to one of my post a time back...(have no idea when, have lost ALL track of time and will look back at something which feels like months ago and find it is only days..) I know you didnt mean it to but your post put a smile on my face at a time when I needed it..your right, alcohol is evil...
I see you have connected with 25...she is great, she manages to put my in my place when I need it also and is pretty smart since she has been throught it.

My husband has been an alcoholic since the day we met. after 15 yrs together I couldnt take it anymore and left with our S14 and his SS21 (who has special needs like your own) my older S28 and his SS is out on his own.
He started rehab after I had been gone for 6 months and has now been sober for 20 months. We have been seperated the whole time but he was very attentive and spent all his time with us or at AA and his rehab classes. I knew when I left that i did not want a divorce, we actually both agreed we did not, but I knew it would be AT LEAST a year seperated before we could begin reconciling. Right before his graduation from his program he all but disapeared, went 7 weeks with out seeing our s14 and was saying he was working alot. we began to argue about the fact that he was not spending any time with S and all the sudden he wanted a D.
about 6 weeks later I caught him in our bed with OW....
I filed papers last week but have been devistated about it, i dont want a divorce but due to financial reasons didnt really have a choice. I have good days and bad days (like yesterday were I cried in my bathroom for 3 hrs after work) Im forcing my self not to think of them together and how he has replaced us with her. just offering my support and someone to talk to if you need. I could use someone to who can relate to what Im going through...
Im taking my boys camping this weekend to get out of town...its going to rain so we are going to sit in the trailer and watch movies and play cards but it will get there minds off all the crap. It is the first time ive taken them alone with out H so Im hoping it wont be to hard on me....Im ready to get out of town and not wonder whats going on at my house in my bed....so sick of it!!!