Where to next?

[mishka422]

Well, there is the problem kat. I can't see anything at all. I've been trying visualization exercises for a couple of years now and still can't envision anything. My C worked with me on this and it frustrated both of us to no end.

I close my eyes, try to envision what I want to be happening in my life in the next week, not even 6 months or more from now, and I can't see anything. It's black. I then push it out to 6 months and...still black. She had me try to envision 5 years from now thinking it would help me to go out far and work backward....nope.....nothing.

What the heck does that say? Do I just have no vision or do I have no hope? What is blocking me.

There was a time that I had dreams but those days have been gone since I was a teenager. Ever since then I haven't been able to make any kind of plan or work toward a goal. Goal setting has been a total bust.

Is it laziness? Is it depression? No idea and my C retired before we were able to work through it. Now I can't afford a C so I'm stuck.

So.....