This just [censored], doesn't it? It's hard to believe we are here, but we are.
I can tell you that as the days go by I find myself less depressed, less anxious, able to sleep longer than 3 hours a night and looking forward to new activities. In the last couple of months I've been out to dinner several times with good friends, have attended superb concerts, been bowling (first time in years) and hit the gym regularly. The big benefit of all of this is that when I am doing these things I am not thinking of my W or my situation.
Well, not as much as I used to, anyway...the thoughts still find their way in but it's getting easier to manage them.
As I've said before - get out of the house and into the world. Develop acceptance of your situation, because despairing about it will not change anything and only age you prematurely.
Someday in the future you may meet someone who sees you and admires you for who you are, not who they expect you to be. And your tools will all be sharpened and in place for you to have a strong, healthy and passionate relationship.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
