The future seems clear. Headed to a D. My W calls about once a week from her new home 1600 miles way. Not sure if it is out of love and interest or obligation. Arranging the financial separation, which promises to be a massive pain, as most of you know. But it has to happen.
I feel like a broken record. I know she is not coming back. I know I am getting a D. I know I will never see her again, and that she wants nothing to do with me. She is committed to a starting a new life without me. That is just the way it is.
I wonder how long it will take for me to move on without her? I have begun to refocus on GAL activities, working to tone my body, trying to reach out to friends (without discussing my sitch), trying to get my professional career back on track.
Just wish I had a way to take a step forward without taking a step back. I feel like I am caught on a rollercoaster that never ends.
Excuse my morose attitude. Just needed to vent.
H 51, W 46 no kids T 22 years M 17 years ILBNILWY 2/10 1st D talk 6/10 partial recovery W files D 5/11 long distance separation 8/11 moving forward on D 10/11 legal separation complete 1/2012
