Living with groundlessness

[AntoniaB]

Oh Kara I love the "climbing an emotional Everest" phrase!!

Yes my activities are solitary. I do needlework too...solitary!

Your post is so interesting because at my doctor appt today she asked me if I ever felt really at peace, and I said yeah, in meditation GROUP. She asked why. I said "I think it is the presence of the other people. They make me calm."

So in light of that and what you said, it does seem like group interaction is important...see I was in a really good spot in Spring, but I was teaching. I have wondered if half my problem right now is that I'm not teaching. I think I get a lot from it...the interaction with people. It's been hard to do that sort of thing now as I"m so conscious of "they're paying my full time salary now for me to write this book", but I can do a little more till I get back to teaching without it impacting the book work. Two guys in our meditation group do this drum circle thing after our class is done, right down the street. I was told I should go, and I was like "no, that's not for me." But maybe it is? I can start there.

I think I am going to try to do yoga more regularly for the tension.

Also...there is a needlework group that meets once a month about an hour from me, and you can take your work and just sit with stitchers. Maybe I could do that.

I am going to go over to a colleague's house this weekend to help her organize her books (she just moved). I had to offer to help her 3 times, but eventually she sent me an email and said "hey, how about this weekend?"

Maybe people just aren't used to me being so friendly yet and it's taking awhile ;-)