What do I do next? Part 2

[luvhurts49]

When someone meets me for the first time, they either say that I'm shy or that I'm an a$$hole. I am naturally argumentative and always have a need to be right which leads some people to think that I'm also arrogant or full of myself. I'm currently working on these as part of my 180's, but I do appreciate the sentiment though Accuray.

I did do a lot of things wrong. I didn't pay enough attention to my W. I didn't do enough to ensure W happiness. I got comfortable in my M. I let things slide when I should have addressed them. I ignored the signs of temptation of OM. I rejected thoughts of jealousy. I put too many things ahead of my M, my W, and my kids.

However, I didn't choose to have my W leave for OM. I didn't choose to see my kids less. I didn't choose depression and sadness.

I choose to be a better dad. I choose to forgive my W. I choose to make myself a better person. I choose to never stopped loving my W and my kids unconditionally.

What else can I do? Nothing. I know I can't change her, but I still want to. I know I can't fix anything but myself, but I want to do more. I want the OM to go away, so maybe her heart comes back to me. What else can I do?