What do I do next? Part 2

[luvhurts49]

Why is it, when you are going along through your day and everything is kinda okay, but then BAM, you get smacked upside the head with bad thoughts and it just makes you want to run to the bathroom, where nobody can see you, and just cry? I really hate these moments.

Okay, time to vent. My W works in a large factory where the employees are mostly men. I understand that there is probably a lot to look at, but in 20 years, she has yet to be tempted. I just can't believe that my W would have an A. I mean, I can understand looking to a point, but come on, if she thought that something was missing from her life, after 20 years she should feel comfortable enough to say something to me. I know that when I have a problem, I talk to her about it. I'm not perfect, but M takes 2 people, not 1 or 1.5, but 2 people. Just the thought of the 2 of them drives me insane.

This morning, when she dropped off my youngest son, I noticed she was driving her dads truck. Apparently, her POS car (which she chose to take) is having electrical problems and doesn't have any lights.

She also couldn't look me in the eye and wouldn't even come within a foot of me. I wonder if she is feeling guilty because she is having an A or if she is just trying to separate herself from our M? I haven't told her that I know about A yet--I'm waiting till this weekend where she'll have more time to talk and will have the kids all weekend to think about things.