Living with groundlessness

[AntoniaB]

Oh and when I think of all this above, that is when I feel most jealous of XH and OW, because I think you know, they have each other, as twisted and messed up as they are, they have each other, and I could die tomorrow. I'd die with my dignity, and my principles, and my clarity and honesty with myself and my growth. But I'd die "without" that one thing that they have...and this is an internal struggle I face, learning how to say that it's ok to not have someone in your life, learning how to relax with spending the majority of your life connected to people only through phone or internet or standing in front of a class.

I think if society had a better attitude towards single people it wouldnt' be so difficult. I mean, any time I meet a person and say it's a man, my mom's FIRST question is, "and how old is he and is he married?" Yeah, thanks a lot, mom.

I have a psych. appt. today...will report back later if I learn anything that would help people.